BubU de WorDs

2012-02-13T23:02:00.001+08:00

I wish every day could be the same like last night. It felt just like how we used to be, lots of tolerance, the care, the love, the attention, especially the way we talk to each other with cautious not to hurt each other's feelings. It felt unrealistic but that's exactly how we were before. How sad? Am so used to both of us getting down at each others' throat. But last night really felt nice,

2012-02-12T12:12:00.001+08:00

Nowadays, whenever I try to open my mouth and form a sentence, it always come out as "used to". "You used to do this, you used to do that...."all past tensed. You used to hold my hand that way, you used to hug me whenever you turn over like that, you used kiss me on the cheek before you leave work in the morning, you used to message me good morning with all the lovey lovey stuffs, you used to

2012-02-12T04:23:00.001+08:00

Just finished doing some chores. Share some amazing things that happened recently. It's really a record! Yao guai and I actually talked on the phone for near an hour! That definitely never happened before, of cos it's due to we are always just next to each other most of the time but I'm referring to the times that when we don't get to see each other. It's a peaceful talk though at first it wasn't

2012-02-11T11:35:00.001+08:00

I can't find my couple ring!! Shit. Just nice, valentines day.:) don't know what he will think about this.

2012-02-07T20:00:00.002+08:00

More than a week since I last stepped into this room. This smell, this feeling, all so familiar. A wide smile spreaded across my face as I saw that plastic empty bottle I secured to the bottom corner of the door with scotch tape to catch the dripping water from the aircon unit. This room, so much memories, this 3 years hadn't been easy and we've made it through but why not now? Just took a sniff

2012-02-03T12:26:00.001+08:00

Very lost and confused. And guilty. Messed up my life, Tossed n turned then it finally went back to normal and here I am having it messed up again. Av 1st day. Can't blame myself for all these mood swingings like crazy.

2012-02-03T03:31:00.001+08:00

This is the only good quality photo I managed to take with Yao guai during CNY. Sourish* one week is coming to an end, what's next? Anticipating. It's been dragging for far too long, we are both exhausted, I should stop thinking now cos I keep having flashbacks on how I'm being verbally abused so many times. This is definitely not the way to treat someone if you love them. He used to care alot,

2012-02-03T03:09:00.001+08:00

I feel lost. Lost and scared.

2011-11-28T04:26:00.001+08:00

我想死，可以吗？=]

2011-11-28T03:51:00.001+08:00

If one's being alive causes so much miseries to others, wads the point? U are right, I didn't know I was so worthless until now, after all these u said about me. Really makes me think I can't do anything but die or no one is going to have peace.

2011-11-13T04:02:00.001+08:00

难道女人的命就只是哭吗？

2011-11-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

After 1 week of not wearing my wedding rings, suddenly wearing it feel so weird. After 1 week of not staying over here, once stepped inside, everything feels so different. After 1 week of not lying on this bed, it felt like a stranger. I didn't realize that my mind has forgotten so much feelings already, just in a week. Did I make a wrong choice to u-turn? Always see other females who always cry

2011-11-07T02:46:00.001+08:00

"U more ke Lian lo because worry me tat why until now haven sleep".... "Won't la I believe u trust me just u worry me only...." He still talks to me patiently, after I behaves so hysterically for the past months. I must regain back all the trust n believe him just like old times. And I believe hubby will make it happen, he will make bacai trust him110% again de.:)

2011-11-05T23:21:00.001+08:00

I had to grab a shirt from that big bags of clothes I moved back home from yours, to sniff on. Cos that's the only things I have with me that smells like you.

2011-11-05T23:04:00.001+08:00

I'm not used to sleeping without u by my side.

2011-11-05T22:57:00.001+08:00

Am I deceiving myself? Looking so happy n enjoying myself. Yes I really do. Had so much fun n relaxation for the past few days. But only I myself know how badly I simply want to be just in his arms. But if I give in now, I will never get back that "him" from before. The one who gives me 101% care, concern, love, attention and tolerance. I have to stand strong. But family n friends love are really

2011-10-31T19:39:00.002+08:00

Loads of things to update and I really don't know where I should start from!XD Ok, health? Not really good. Could feel some growth inside lower tummy. Cyst? >_< dun wanna think about it! Halloween! To USS we went~ not really scary, EXCEPT for the haunted house of that Old Nyoya. Real damn super uber duper ultra extra scary! Thumbs upppp! But it's still different, missing several members from

2011-10-25T22:34:00.001+08:00

Happy! =D drove back to Kovan from Ubi.. Though I'm super tired la.. Haha! My head still feels heavy..=_=

2011-10-24T00:55:00.001+08:00

How did our relationship turn out this way? How did i become this way? I'm so lost. I need guidance

2011-10-24T00:47:00.001+08:00

Deep in my heart I know the depressed feeling is still there. No matter how much cigarettes I smokes. After the effect wears off, I'm back to my depression state, like how I keep feel like crying now. Laptop made me even madder! Cannot even switch on.

2011-10-23T03:42:00.001+08:00

Right now, I really wished I'm back in tampines. That has replaced the safest place in my heart. It used to be here but no more. And I'm not surprised why it's not, just sad.

2011-10-23T03:36:00.001+08:00

And there goes an off day, we din get to do much or spend quality time tgt. I dun even feel like caring bout this anymore cos whenever I think about it, only thing that comes is tears.

2011-10-23T03:29:00.001+08:00

Told me its just one game but carried on with the second round not even letting me know. I wasn't rude, I told him to continue with the mj game. My stomach was cramping so badly, all I wanted was the bed, I needed to lie down n rest. Left him there to play on his own, finally lie on the bed managing to feel my tummy a lil better. But all I could do now is cry. The evening started well you know?

Nil.

2011-10-21T08:11:00.001+08:00

Negative. It's negative. Overwhelmed in sadness, to the kind of near crying extend. Bought those cheapo kinds from guardian, both shows neg. Also a good thing isnt it? No house no nth, if a baby were to come along, *I would love that* nope, its gonna be so different but i'd still love it. But we just dun get to choose in life.. Something's definitely growing in me, most prob cyst? I dun even

2010-12-31T16:05:00.000+08:00

After all these years, i guess im still da same. I think im simply different from almost everyone out there. HAPPY?o.O''.. new year??!! Whata!? A whole year to start all over again, go thru all kinds of shits, sweet, bitter, sour,etc all over again.. n what's worst is tt we are getting even CLOSER to the END of the world. I know that on a comforting note, I'll hv hubbi to go thru the year with.

2010-12-30T12:46:00.001+08:00

It would b sad to spend de eve alone but tt's inevitable... Hubby's gonna reach home ard 1o plus, so tt wouldn't b spending de whole eve lonely... P.s: u ppl better dun fall sick, u will see wad goes ard will come ard. This bunch of Old CBssss... Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

THEORY.

2010-12-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

真搞不董,全部人都去除了我没去但他好想更高兴。。i know its odd but I hv to say i really felt abandoned. I mean if I dunno the ppl he's going out with, thats another story. But I know them, then tts a totally different story. Of cos I would feel sad, its like" not bringing ur wallet out" when u alway brings it. I dun c myself doing tt to him when he's sick. So, see? The dif between man n women? Their brain stores far

2010-11-21T22:06:00.001+08:00

I promised to live my life to de fullest.. But I think I need some self restraint here, before everything goes outta hands.. Im thinking of clubbing n drinks every time.. No good.. But then again, if I dun hv fun n play nw, when? So, lotsa contradictions..er.. Tired of thinking. Till de next time! Btw, to hell those matda fookers..._l_ Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

2010-11-06T22:38:00.001+08:00

Super duple-ly hit by emo. It feels utterly horrible, totally lost in ur own world while everyone else r talking n laughing, n when u finally come back to de real world , they r still talking n laughing but u realises tt u hv already missed out a lot.complicated. Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

2010-10-13T21:45:00.001+08:00

He cant sense it... Realli? Tt hw emo I feel nw?.... Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

2010-10-12T12:12:00.001+08:00

我从此会好好珍惜我们在一起的每分每秒,尽量不要拿来和你争吵,不想浪费和你在一起的每刻宝贵时间。 Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

Dream.. Dream.. Dream..

2010-08-26T07:43:00.001+08:00

Was talking bout my long time ago guitarist dream to my new colls. Yesterday, I dun think it Is still possible, they say but im still young. Hmmm..think i'll just let this one pass. Published with Blogger-droid v1.4.8

2010-07-22T02:57:00.006+08:00

yes yes yes... im thinking of reviving my blog after so long.... feel so bored and "abandoned".. but there's not much choices for him anyway... just keep having that emptiness feeling in me.. i really wished we could spend more time together and i am so sure this will get worst after i start work at NHCS, i need to start work at 8.30 am and end work@ 4.30pm.. so, i need to hit my pillow not later

2009-04-20T15:22:00.002+08:00

and ya, i almost finished my " The Gift" by Cecilia, and bought 2 more novels... missed reading so much... now only able to do so on certain off days.. life is soooooo peaceful and blissful... and how i wish every night after work, i can lie on the bed with bibi and watch the many shows together,fall asleep, wake up together and go to work together... and yes, that's my plan and his plan.. we'll

2009-04-20T14:59:00.005+08:00

From the very first most casual lunch at Ajisen restaurant to the most recent supper of pasa malam's junkies while walking on the street, with no one else but only us... and all the events that had took place, all the things we've done together... I can only say, its so magical, so blissful, so peaceful...From that bad first impression that developed to such feeling.. from a stranger to my hubby.

2009-04-11T12:22:00.004+08:00

fell super sick , its been so long since i got so sick...all illnesses come at once, super feel like dying ... lazy to even talk abt it.. haven been to work for 3 days.. woohoo.. heavenly enjoyment... tml then start pia sales ba...anyway.. chasing drama "爱就宅一起".. hope its going to be a good one...*grin..miss bibi.. super long din see him le, and he fell sick too...this is life, and i hate it...i

2009-04-08T23:16:00.008+08:00

First, I apologise for starting the post with " FCUK YOU, BI-U-YICH"its either becos of the once every month or becos im very sick or its really this way that make me feel that sick and tired of my fucking life." FCUK YOU, BI-U-YICH" is the words that has been screamed out in my head for million times the whole fucking day. And yes, tiny drops escaped from my eyes while i was on the bus, on my

2009-04-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

and another thing... i dreamt about them.think i shouldn't be contacting them since things has already been like this...=(And im going to B.A.T.A.M!!!~~~Woo hoo~~

2009-04-06T23:09:00.004+08:00

.......well... currently left with only half of my voice..>.<.... not sure wad's wrong, think too heaty and too stressed up......Anyway, was super happy cos i managed to sell off one Purple gold necklace and earn more comms/ incentives....... and i suddenly tot tt the 2 compulsory unpaid leave is nth ... LOL, comms can easily cover it... holY...Though good news, there's bad ones as well......

2009-04-03T16:14:00.004+08:00

Well... been missing for quite long..k, updates:currently workin @ Lee Hwa Jewellery Tampines MallYes, it is super stressful... and ppl are telling me it is going to be tough..And all i see when i shut my eyes are those glass displays, shiny, sparkling and GEMs GEMS still Gems... god..@.@...I have to memorise the product codes that have no link to them ... for e.g K- 18k WG/...ETC... God..Haven

2009-03-29T22:17:00.005+08:00

我爱Ah pek Ah soon.......*blush.....=Phur hurr...."honey moon-ed" with my hubby bibi yesterday...din get much sleep but..=)... im happy......dun know wad i'll do if he's not ard, 我的精神支柱。haix... 2 more days... and i'll have no life.>.<..... Gotta go sign letter of appointment letter tml..then get stuffs for the job..... 1st day is on April 1st... yes, april fool day... For money. For financial

2009-03-26T23:13:00.006+08:00

I cant remember how long it has been since i cried so hard so hard....I just want everyone to know, I despises myself.I really so wanted to tell you, 我现在很难过，需要你的安慰。但我又惹你生气了。又。I just simply screw every single thing in my life.... or simply 老天喜欢没收我珍惜的一切，应为我的愚蠢，；自大；自私；自以为是；不自量力的所为，但我把眼睛闭上太久，老天看了就会要教训我。当一件事开始不顺，慢慢的一件又一间的事也会跟着不顺。我只会一直给我身边的人添麻烦。我只能一直说对不起，我还会什么？做错事，一句对不起不算什么。我知道的。为何还是学不乖?...

2009-03-26T20:27:00.006+08:00

changed blog song.... nice lyrics and everything... interested can ask me send to you.. cos hard to find nice versions...I really had no ideas why u would think that is pointed at you guys.... seems like i have really been a bad person, otherwise why would this kind of things keep happening....酸酸的。I didn't asked you all out for lunch or slackings ma? when im with the current one?...每天忙着找工和许多事，

2009-03-26T19:49:00.006+08:00

well..... spent more than 45 mins trying to lock my bloody com, cos this os dun seem to be willing to ask for my password when i log in, Just wish tt god blesses me, hope my bro wont realise its not locked and come destroying my com.Went for a interview at Lee Hwa Diamond Gallery @ wisma in the afternoon, from my estimation there were more than 50 applicants....@.@... god hell not... and i @#^&&$

2009-03-23T14:19:00.001+08:00

Min Min keep coming to my room's door and give me a smile.....lol.... so sweet ...... she's started to run about in the house in her walker.....so cute~~.....

2009-03-23T13:25:00.004+08:00

有着没有我的回忆...没有我的世界... 对你们一定没有任何影响.humpx.... hahakx... im ok with it.. I know im strong..And i always forgot to mention, how strong or weak i am, depends on how much i want to show it.This life i lead. The only aim is to wait for that very day, and i wonder if my mind would change one day, and what will be the cause of the change?updates:-hmm......busy busy??... missed a interview today.... getting

2009-03-18T09:43:00.003+08:00

Seems like everything is coming down for me....LOL..... but anyway, things will work out some how..I'll just keep telling myself "Everything that is happening and everything that has been done is plainly just to pass time". And the day would seem better.im much fortunate, I know.Gonna hit the gym after "hitting" the tab"Publish"... Guess some perspiration will be good for me... cant remember when

2009-03-17T12:01:00.002+08:00

=D ..=D...=D..... guess wad im doing now??.....0.oShhhhhhhhhhhhh... contacting a person who has hamsters up for free adoption!!...=D....Dun tell my mum.

2009-03-17T00:56:00.004+08:00

was reading de past smses, and was pulled back to right from de start. Where everything was still zero, from zero to now, so much has happened..that first sight, tt first impression, tt first conversation, tt first night, tt first hug, tt first ice cream, tt first kiss, tt first date tt first everything..This guy who've seen my worst side, my worst scene ever, this guy who stood by me when im in

2009-03-16T19:05:00.001+08:00

search until my eyes really want pop out le... Woots..... hur hurr... super happy!!.... I found one so near me!!... Woo hoo.......Finally can off my com go rest my eyes le...=)

2009-03-16T13:54:00.004+08:00

my aunty is here, and i cant control my emotions.Im sorry to have lied tt i am sleeping.. Im sorry for not wanting to speak to anyone, im sorry.. Im sorry about my pathetic life.. I just want to hide in my blanket like i always do and cry all i wan with no one seeing.. De only time i can be as ...Just let me cry, and de tears just dun seem to stop.. i really see no reason why a person like me is

2009-03-15T23:46:00.009+08:00

omg... Im just so bloody touched.. Bibi rushed back , skipping de dinner and despite all de lack of sleep... See he look so tired, i also xin tong le.. Who ask me to sms him so many crazy stuffs.. I know confirm very tiring to rush here rush there.. Im really super touched.. How can i not love him? My sweetest bibi.. Who else in this would even sacrifice, do so much to this extent..? Definitely

2009-03-15T21:38:00.003+08:00

LJ tiredLj bad moodLj de work so hard but still Lj salesLj m1 suddenly this 2 days machiam IT SHOW Lj de a lot of pplLj de sales all go to se, of cos la, se got good offer,ppl sell so cheap confirm choose se to samsung la.. (i also wan buy se phone.)Lj manger on satLj sore eyesLj runny noseLj bus 23 full of bangalas keep squeezing.Nb.Lj small toe's nail came off again, machiam a pcs of

2009-03-13T13:36:00.002+08:00

well......................................................... having a sore eye now... damn....#$%^&*#... anyway... there are still so many things i havent updated ... oh god... they are all building up ... will uodate they asap...hur hurr.... well, roughly still the same everyday.. missing my bibi... when met up with bibi on tues, went for nice food and movie..Caution: For ppl who havent watched

2009-03-09T11:43:00.010+08:00

oops... >.<... too many photos... still uploading... come back soon...=P

2009-03-09T02:56:00.004+08:00

after thinking through for de past few hrs, i think de only conclusion is- im setting almost all my focus on bibi..this is why. This means, oh shit, its gonna happen again.I need to stop it from happening again..But how? Im trying my best to think back, and i do remember, one week ago, every single thing was still alright.No, no , no, no. Lb's going to be positive... Positive.... Everything can

2009-03-09T01:59:00.005+08:00

bibi gave me a really huge surprise just now... How can i not love him? He's simply just too sweet..But pian pian my stupid personality always spoils everything..I think i really need a lot of medical attention ba? Abo where will there be a human being like me? I dun think there is except for ppl same like me, who's siao char bor... But i really wish all there rubbish can end, cos i dun wan to

2009-03-03T20:19:00.005+08:00

-Going out with hubby bibi tml....=)... but my cold dun seem to go...FreAkKkk~-Baby cousin's finally smiling at me...=)-Received offer of $1250 at Comfort Delgro Driving Centre @ Ubi for Customer Service Officer Position. AM having a headache cos im not sure if i should take it, supposed to sign the appointment letter today but came up with best excuse( thx to bibi), and so got abt 1 or 2 more

2009-03-01T03:03:00.005+08:00

Just reached home after a movie with bibi and his fren......*yawn~~..... caught "Marley and Me" at Bishan...And the thing is that , I CANT believe i actually cried.. god@.@.... lao pan and jun, I actually cried...OMG.... thats like, record?o.O... Im like, a person who doesnt even drop a tear for the worst,heartbreaking storyline...... but i did, for this movie..So trust me on this one, its gonna

2009-02-27T12:43:00.002+08:00

Just received a sms.... WOotSss~~~ receiving pay on this coming WED....=) =)... but after take pay, return this return tt jiu left little bit ... but nvm.... hur hur.. at least gt some bucks...must shen shen yong....*no particular reason for this song... its nice... hooked. *grin

2009-02-27T12:39:00.003+08:00

OMG!!~~~我要闷死了!!~~~>.<.............................super sian........later still hv to go bedok specially to pass ppl demo.....Bleahx!!anyway.. tata ppl... wil be back to update in a few days ba......now off to make lunch for my ma lo....=D.... hahakx...

2009-02-27T11:10:00.006+08:00

well.... Bibi brought me to east coast...=)... to ride bicycle, i think its because i've told him before that i have always wanted to go ride bicycle with jun they all....sky wasnt exactly pretty so din take pics... hmm.... then picked several shells... i din realised one of it has a "ka ka" inside!!.. the 'ka ka" died lo.. omg....@.@... think its a crab... so sad, almost had a pet lo~..... but

2009-02-26T11:57:00.005+08:00

Just went and came back from chris' blog.....Lao pan.... that was so super sweet..... =D... happy for you....going change le lo.... wahahha... meeting jun and lao pan for lunch.. finally!! its like dunno how lon since i last seen them lo...=(.... hur hur.... will be back to update later...=)awww.. very long nv see nanny too...@.@...>.<...And yes, im still jobless...haix.......=_=....hur hur...

2009-02-24T21:30:00.003+08:00

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2009-02-24T19:42:00.008+08:00

Updates Updates!!.. Er... see pictures first ba...these are photos that i've wanted to put up since dunno when....>.<..... and of cos, i looked different now le lo.. wahahaha... 辛福的人都会发福的啦 !!....=DJun's Bday.... we 4 sisters.. look at our hands.. coincident o.. we din 讲好de O... I din see them for very long le.. miss them....=(.... but busy with finding jobs and fucking interviews that waste my

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2009-02-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

hur hur hur....=D......Well.. might be my last post le.... this post is gonna be quite rojak de la, combined alot of things that i hv always wanted to post up.......=X..oops... but well... hur hur... basically, its on the foods that my sweeter than sugar de Hubbi bibi brought to eat de....=D... my V day pressies from bibi.... hmm... and a few pic that shows the difference in me...>.<.. =)... fed

2009-02-19T19:06:00.005+08:00

@.@..................OMg..... there are so many pretty dresses...>.<.... but haiz.... anyway... there quite a few nice movies that i super want to watch!!!!1) Cant wait !!!... Omg...2)3)4)5Anyway, no in a very good mood, bad day, i dunno... dun feel good abt everything... think i should just go hide back under my blanket...

2009-02-18T18:13:00.006+08:00

Jiang Jiang Jiang Jiang...!!!~~ 可喜可贺，我的blog skin is finally about done!!.. well... give some comments ba..... That picture up there is all done by 我，白林倍!!... ( just for the pic is enough...=P)Blog skin not exactly all done by me, used the original skin code( but alignments are odd@.@...) so edited, re-edit, changed backgrd, do that pic, change the picture... So should say combined la.. hahakx...

2009-02-18T15:21:00.003+08:00

I have never, ever in my life, sent out so much applications.And yes, for job.And i've been filling.typing in the blanks, asking for same exact details, and attaching and sending out e-mails for the past 2 to 3 hours... non stop...Wish me luck and im not in a good mood. may be due to my aunty ba...And currently, I received a call... woots... wish me luck wish me luck!!!,, customer service, 6 days

2009-02-16T15:59:00.003+08:00

well... im in the process of coming up with a skin.. so bear with the mess k......>.<.... and meanwhile, uploading the lots lots lots of photos taken( food) ... at places bibi brought me to eat....And, valentines day is over.... so what's your best ever gift?....For mine, its from 老天... for letting me meet Mr Jason Soon... for letting him become my bibi.will update more soon... and yes, im still

2009-02-15T15:28:00.001+08:00

I so so so want to try this... wonder if its real...o.O

2009-02-15T14:57:00.007+08:00

.. OMG... k, look at these... i just search on the word chocolate and browse thru it... i dun even know where the hell the website is created, but arent they just wonderful??....This box is made from chocolate ... just cannot believe it lo!!Strawberry PralineTiramisu PralineSugarfree Darjeeling CreamRose And Raspberry PralineLemon mint ganacheOrange Almond Praline- my most favourite. This is the

2009-02-15T14:18:00.003+08:00

* BLEAHX..............................>.<"Anyway, something that can make me cheer up....=)... I was browsing thru the webbies AND i came by " Drool- Worthy-chocolate treats"AND AND AND.. here's those that i would kill to have a bite...( i dun literally meant kill... but well... it just seem superrrr wonderful... omg..) just looking at the pic makes me drool... goodness.... well, kidding.. enjoy

2009-02-14T14:40:00.005+08:00

>.<..........................>.<...........=(...... everyone is most probably going out on date tonight de lo...... im sick, bibi has to go for dinner.....=(....Thought i'll be receiving dark red roses this Valentines....though 心里酸酸的。。 but nvm, bibi's presents are enough le... 心满意足了....=)... hahakx.... lol, its not like i've nv spent valentines by myself before la.... lol.... it just will be

2009-02-13T19:59:00.003+08:00

ok.... >.<... so much to update!!soon.. alrite... soon...1)Vday2)jun's Bday3)hmm.... a lot more.. cant remember..oops...Bi bi..=)

2009-02-06T10:32:00.006+08:00

Gonna change moi blog skin... soooooooooo.... ppl, once again:Sorry its gonna looked kinda messy again... but well... i promised its gonna looked much nicer and lighter this time round...*grin...Will update in the meantime too...=)well.... Im currently using LG viewty( million thx to jun!!... can return you your phone le..muackx)... 2nd hand but i can say its reEaally in very good condition...

2009-02-05T13:49:00.008+08:00

Im a crab.A Hermit Crab.I'll hide back into my shell when i sense danger and insecurity."With these deep, intense intuitive powers comes a fragility, as Cancer's feelings are brittle and easily hurt. Hence, that Crabby shell in which they hide themselves when frightened or overwhelmed. So often retreating to their shells..."-naive-wo bu xiang zai sou shang... wo jue ding ran zhi jue lai jue din.

2009-02-04T13:58:00.005+08:00

-Peace-I tried 2 puffs of "Marbolo??".."Marboro?"... anyway, cigs las.....*BLANK... So this is what you guy's been smoking....@.@...... hmm.... maybe its really because the alcohol i took earlier has musked it, so cant really get the full smell? taste?...lol....Anyway, at least now i know... but... O.o.... i didnt really have any feeling lei... its like choking first then, cooling cooling de....0

2009-02-03T14:51:00.010+08:00

Hahahahahahakx...... i pan tang is pan tang.. but CHRIS!!!! =D.........hmmm.... hmmmmm........=)..........u should get wad i mean ba.......hur hur....Cancer and Cancer When two Cancerians come together in a love affair, a loving and yet very emotional domestic relationship ensues. A Cancer-Cancer match makes for a deeply devoted duo, endlessly loyal to one another. Both will learn the

2009-02-03T12:51:00.010+08:00

hmmm..... went missing from blogging for a few days le ba.... anyway, I just realised that these 2 days i hadn't had my medicine, I tot i had it.... but i seemed alrite.... so........ =)and thus to "jie tuo", my only way is to bid you farewell... and forget you.ask ye ask le... beg ye beg le.... here i am, a girl that chris would say- mei you zun yan.... mei you zun yan de wo zhi shao will have

2009-02-01T02:08:00.004+08:00

Q) why am i blogging now?A) Cos i cant sleep.Q) Why cant i sleep?A) Cos i was packing the stuffs to return to Terence.Q) Why pack at midnite?A) Cos jun is working at JP tml, and Terence should be working there, and i asked jun for a favor, cos i dun wan to trouble him to meet me just to get the stuffs back.Q)You are not working tml meh?A) Yes, Iam.Q)Then dun wan go sleep?A) I cant sleep.Q) Why?A)

2009-01-30T23:53:00.007+08:00

Well... song of the day: just Dance - Lady Gaga( original one's nicer, this is a remix. enjoy)hmmm.....RaNdoM...Bad for me.........I myself cant even recognised myself, Anymore...I dun Know what im doing...if ppl ard me cant bring me clubbing, i'll just have to know ppl who does...Its scary...Million thanks to frens who has always been ard me, esp during this period... and new frens, thx for

2009-01-28T15:55:00.003+08:00

Finally there is ONE photo that i looked the most natural!!....But... but... its a mirror reflection de.... Anyway.. there's more photos but lazy to upload as yet.....hmmm..... soon soon k.... otherwie check out jun or maybe chris' blog...=)....

2009-01-27T17:11:00.002+08:00

WoooooHaaa... Time for MJ!!... sorry folks.. will squeeze some time for pics uploading soon...>.<................. And i love ya all!~........................*wink

2009-01-27T16:36:00.008+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!!!!Woahhhahhh............this is the best ever CNY for me...=)Well, I LURVE my current life..... woohoo............Alrite, lotsa photos.. yipee!! will upload here soon, otherwise can view it at facebook or friendster...So, Its wild wild 18 and 19 FOR ME!!!....Im 18 and im gonna live it 18.( get what i mean?)Woooooooooo hoooooooooo...............................anyway, there are like

2009-01-24T21:17:00.009+08:00

Well, I love Taylor Swift..nice song... enjoy!!....Song of the day: Music Playlist at MixPod.comLove storyWe were both young when I first saw you.I close my eyes and the flashback starts:I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.See the lights, see the party,the ball gowns.See you make your way through the crowd and say hello; Little did I knowThat you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,

2009-01-23T20:53:00.005+08:00

Received an email from jason:(Came with the message" hope u will like this song.....I feel very tired n sick today no more energy play wid u le...i decide to giv up wish u can find a better man den mi...Take care")This is the song:你很爱她当你决定你要离开我我没有说什麽就当作你自由有好几次我都想挽留哭求也没有用就当做是寂寞因爲我能明白她的温柔对你是种解脱就坦白告诉我谁是你的最爱其实你很爱她对我的惩罚说你没有想她是可怜我吧我已没有藉口只能放手不敢奢求你说爱我其实你很爱她她很温柔吗其实你很想她就说出口吧我已不想多说摀住耳朵不想再次听到你说你很爱她And

2009-01-21T13:37:00.002+08:00

sorry... wo hai fang bu sia...can anyone just kill me? I mean... PLEASE....then i remembered, I forgot to take my medication this morning....%6&$%$#%^*^%@#$$&*%$!!!!!!!! haix....

2009-01-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Wad the hell am i doing?... Crrraaaapppp.....

2009-01-19T22:57:00.001+08:00

Tried going out with other guy, thought it will distract my focus.... but, I felt worst....

2009-01-18T10:42:00.004+08:00

Hao ai zhe shou ge...slept at ard 6 30 in the morning... was drunk last nite.. horrible... Super disgusting rite, PLB> no hope....Anyway.... downloaded loads of Nicky's songs... to cure my soulSorry, everyone... I promised that today will a brand new day, brand new start and brand new me........Its just so hard. I'll try to walk out from it all....support me if u can people..Special thx: Jun, Lao

2009-01-16T12:30:00.003+08:00

ok... some updates...i think start with me first...- Yesterday was a super much better day for me.. think its the doc's medicine ... well, i had more than 13 hrs of sleep that night.. Not interrupted!!- Didn't even cried a single time yesterday...- so i supposed my condition is stabilised.-Today.... same thing, had more than 12 hrs of wonderful rest at night..-But i still keep thinking of you...

2009-01-14T19:26:00.002+08:00

I think im kind of like stabilised le ba.... will be able to sleep tonight, the doc gave me another medicine....Im just wondering... would you agree if i just dont think about anything.. dont think of a solution..etc....cos not thinking about these made me felt much better....I'll be working this and next weekend( i hope).. asked for deployment but.... not sure if i'll get any....I'll be waiting

2009-01-14T16:25:00.004+08:00

just came back with ma from the hospital... i realised one thing, When my mind is busy of other things like registration for my ma la...etc.... I dont feel depressed....i only start to feel sadEsp. when so many things are linked with you... I can hold back tears now le... think im getting better?... just that inside feels super terrible thats all...I start to think lesser about "the end"... I

2009-01-14T11:55:00.004+08:00

I just came back from the doctor... well... lets just say that im really not well...As prescribed by the doc, im under Acute Depression from the recommendation letter he wrote to get me an appointment with the psychiatrist... I didn't set the appointment.. still waiting to see if i really need one...And im now under "time-out"... Time out can also be said as a break up...thats what he said..So

2009-01-12T15:20:00.001+08:00

People... sth went wrong with my com... haix............................using this express gate thingy to blog now.... haix.....I got D7 for my maths... din clear it....haixx....

2009-01-12T12:36:00.004+08:00

Yours faded, I have to let mine fade too...Your bo chap will make me bo chap too...Im tired of being the one who loves more...I see no point, since no matter how its drags, theres no future for us...Tell me why am i still wasting time?Tell me whats the point?Tell me, Do you really love me?... Touch your heart... I mean love, not feel.Tell me what im doing is wrong.Tell me.Are you going to prove

2009-01-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hao xiang zai ting ni chang.....

2009-01-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

updates updates...... sorry that i've been missing for like about 1 week??..>.<.... bussy staying at home with my ma... should be able to have more time soon.... havent seen dear for some time le ba?.. seems like we'll only see each other once a week...hmmm...... thinking of negatives stuffs again.... haix.. *shake head shake head...BE BRAVE!!!!! dun worry nax...Just dun know why i have this

2008-12-31T18:22:00.006+08:00

updates updates....mum's in hosp, op dine, everything fine..=) my AH yi-ssss are calling up and asking and reminding me to take care of myself and asking me to take care of mummy..lol... quite heart-warming...*wink...good news, my "aunty"s finally here but came with super impact- super emotional and uncontrollable fare ups at reasons that i cant remember why i got so angry in the 1st place and to